Saying Goodbye to My Precious Angel Who Died of Canine Liver Cancer

Saying Goodbye to My Precious Angel Who Died of Canine Liver Cancer

by Brody's Mom
(New Jersey)

We lost our precious Brody, early this past Tues. morning, to what our vet is almost positive was liver cancer. It was so heartbreaking and has been soooo hard.


Brody was a 10 1/2 year old mixed breed dog, appearing to be mostly German Shepherd and Lab. He had been part of our family since he was six weeks old and was a pure joy. We miss him terribly and our family will never be the same without him.

Most of the symptoms he'd been having in recent months were assumed to have been caused by the chronic renal failure (CRF) he'd had for the last four years, due to his six bouts with Lyme disease (even with faithful Frontline use).
He had been on a high blood pressure med. since his CRF diagnoses to try to prevent further kidney damage. Though our vet had told us his kidneys would get worse and the CRF would, most likely, eventually be fatal.

Last Jan., routine lab work showed his kidneys had gotten a bit worse and he was started on prescription food. After two or three months, he wouldn't eat it, so we started him on holistic food again.

A month or so later, we wouldn't eat that food and kept on with that pattern and we had to keep changing his food. His loss of appetite seemed to be selective though. Whenever we forgot to put our cats food up where he couldn't get it, he would sneak and eat it all, he still begged and never stopped wanting a biscuit after coming in from going potty.

His symptoms were all thought to have been due to his kidney problem or age related. About a year ago, he started having bad breath and awful smelling gas. Then, about four months ago, his belly started gurgling really loudly when he was laying down sometimes.

He'd also been having soft BM's and went from 88 lbs. last Oct. to 77 lbs. the day he died. All those symptoms were thought to be due to his CRF. Nausea, vomiting, diarrhea and weight loss are all associated with that.

He'd also been acting stiffer, had been having some difficulty climbing and jumping, was less alert, less responsive and was sleeping much more. We had his shoulders and hips x-rayed and all were normal. We thought he had arthritis and when nothing showed up the vet didn't pursue the issue any further.

We really don't know what all the Lyme disease he had could've done to his body and between that, the CRF and his getting older, his many symptoms were too easily blamed on one or the other. He went to the vet more than any other dog I've ever known of and it's surprising to me that he was so sick and it wasn't picked up by any of us.

Last week, he pooped on the floor and he hadn't done that since his very young puppy days. Then, two days before he died, he threw up two times, but then seemed fine until the night he died. The last moments of his life were a nightmare. That poor dog.

Sunday night, he vomited 21 times...some big spots, some tiny. I knew then, something was very wrong. He also had a tiny bit of diarrhea. We took him to the vet first thing Monday morning. She kept him for four hours, gave him IV fluids, did some lab tests and an abdominal x-ray.
He was dehydrated, his liver enzymes were elevated, he was slightly anemic, had a mild infection and the x-ray showed a huge liver mass. We were told it was either a tumor, or a tumor with a blood clot attached to it.

Brody was sent home that evening and was to have surgery Thursday, or earlier if needed as an emergency. We were told to be very careful with him and were warned if the mass had a clot, it could rupture and then nothing could be done.
As soon as we got home, I wanted to take him back. He couldn't even climb into the car when leaving the vet's office and couldn't climb the three steps to get into our house. He also started vomiting as soon as he got out of the car.

I called the vet's office immediately after getting home, but the office had already closed. I had planned to take Brody back early Tues. morning, but had a frightening feeling he wasn't going to make it till morning. He vomited 10 times that night, got increasingly weak and for the last hour of his life, had difficulty breathing, apparently due to shock.

It was awful and so very sad. He got restless, changing positions, stretching out his neck, trying to get more air. Then, he started gasping and puffing out his cheeks. When he started taking slower breaths, opening his mouth wide, I knew the end was near. He struggled, trying to get more air for a whole hour.

He just wouldn't give up. At least, he died on his favorite blanket, with my husband and I with him, hugging him, kissing him and talking to him. We told him we loved him and that it was okay for him to go. We told him to go be with his brother Orion and then he died.

With the economy and having three pets with health problems, we couldn't afford to take him to an emergency animal hospital. We also still owe our vet a bit for surgery on one of our cats recently. We doubt Brody could've made it to a hospital anyway. The nearest one to us is at least 20 mins. away and he always got very nervous in the car, panting excessively.

We were also afraid to pick him up, or move him, with the possibility of his having a clot. Being a graduate nurse, I thought his troubled breathing was due to a clot rupturing causing internal bleeding and shock.

I don't know if I'll ever get over the tremendous guilt I feel for not knowing my precious angel was so very ill. I pray he's happy and healthy in a far better place and that he'll be there to greet me when my time comes. I feel for anyone having to go through their dog having liver cancer, or anyone having to go through the loss of a dear and beloved best companion and buddy.

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Nov 27, 2016
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Sammy
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry for your loss of Sammy. We experienced the same thing with Lucy. She was fine, then she wasn't. Within nine hours after taking her to the emergency vet, we put her down.

I understand your guilt, but there was no way to have known. Even the vet didn't know. May God comfort you in your grief.

Nov 27, 2016
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Good bye to Sammy
by: Donna

I am so sorry for your loss.

We lost our own 13 year old multi-poo dog just 2 days ago due to liver cancer. We had no idea she was so sick. I had taken her to a vet a couple of months ago because I thought she wasn't behaving normally (hiding, always underfoot, wanting cool places to lie down) but the vet didn't think there could be anything wrong with such a lively healthy looking dog.

Just in the last two weeks she was sleeping a lot more and was eating less, but was more or less normal. Then 5 days ago (Sat.) she woke me at 3 AM barking and running around and I thought it was a bad dream, which she often had, but now I think that it was probably the pain of an internal rupture. I spent the better part of an hour trying to comfort her and she went back to sleep. But in the next 2 days she was so lethargic and didn't want to go for her walks. She was eating very little and vomited once.

I took her to a different vet on Tuesday who did a blood test, which left a huge bruise, and who took x-rays, which showed a very enlarged liver. The vet called in a specialist who came on Thursday and did an ultrasound which showed advanced liver cancer. She was extremely bloated due to internal bleeding and was showing signs of great discomfort unless I held her.

She was expected to die at any time within the next 2 days and so the decision was made to put her down then so she wouldn't suffer the final agony.

I am so glad I did that now. My regret now is not realizing sooner that she was so sick so I could have spent more time with her. It's hard to believe that 1 week ago she was my happy little dog greeting me at the door, touching noses with her doggy friends on her walks and wanting treats. It's a very painful loss. God bless you!

Oct 26, 2016
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Wikki
by: Anonymous

So sorry to hear about your loss of Wikki. May you find peace and comfort in the days ahead.

Oct 26, 2016
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Just starting down this path
by: Anonymous

Thanks to all of you for sharing your experiences.

My 12 year old golden retriever had x-rays on Friday and an ultrasound today. While so far we don't have a confirmed diagnosis, it doesn't sound as though it's going in a good direction. I'm shocked to hear how quickly many of your dogs went from feeling fine to getting terribly sick and passing.

I'm committed to helping my sweet friend have as many good and happy days as we're given -- and pray for the clarity to make the best decisions I can to honor the love we've had for each other.

Oct 09, 2016
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My Beloved Wikki
by: Anonymous

Thank you for sharing your story.

Yesterday I lost my beloved beagle mix to liver cancer. She was just a few weeks over 13 years old and truly a loving angel. She had been diabetic a couple years but until a few weeks ago, seemed completely normal.

She had a checkup in July and the vet even said she'd never seen a healthier diabetic dog her age. The first symptoms of liver cancer first appeared about a month ago, as she had been having diarrhea, but otherwise seemed fine. Prior to that, she had been eating but had become very picky about her diet and would only eat canned dog food and stopped taking her vitamins.

When the diarrhea didn't subside after a couple weeks, I took her to the vet, because I knew it had to be a sign of something wrong. They did a complete blood panel which showed: anemia, low white blood cell count and elevated liver enzymes, among other things. The vet thought she might have pancreatitis and we treated her accordingly.

Within one week from diagnosis though, she declined rapidly. She began to vomit everything, even just water. I took her in on Friday and they did an ultrasound, which showed that she had a very large mass in her liver. I was shocked because she had never exhibited signs of any pain or discomfort. The vet said she didn't have long to live.

I didn't consider surgery at this stage because it is risky (even for humans) and because of her age and being diabetic. After having lost two pets in the twenty years before her and knowing she wasn't going to improve, I decided to bring her home so that she could spend her last time in peace at home with me.

She was still wanting to potty outside on her own until the day she passed, even though she was weak. I made her comfortable and cleaned up after her, as she continued to vomit and have diarrhea, although it was mostly bile.

I prayed that she wouldn't suffer and go quickly. I held, stroked and kissed her off and on for several hours. Much to my regret, after stepping away for a few minutes, I realized upon my return that she had departed in silence. She was a trooper until the very end. My heart is full of sadness and I will miss my baby ever so much.

Jul 28, 2016
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Your Angel was loved
by: Anonymous

Please don't feel guilty. You did all you could. It is so apparent how much love and care your baby had. It is so tough to know exactly what is going on. I believe all your instincts and common sense helped you in the right direction, especially given the professional vet advice given.

I am in a similar situation right now. My 15 year old mix has liver disease....most very likely cancer. We have been taking extra precautions and care since we found out in January. Our girl Ali is not eating or if she does not nearly enough. Judging by my research, vet visits the last couple of days (months), reading your post, etc., she is nearing her end. So much of her physically seems the same, minus the weight loss which of course is obvious to us. So I am waiting for a few more signs (she still will go for walks, sleeps well, very alert). We will be having her euthanized (please forgive my matter of fact tone... I/we are hurting big time) but I need more time as she still seems to be overall happy. I want to be able to give her the ending she deserved, as you wanted, yet I don't want to push too long so she suffers. As my vet said, if Ali could talk, we would know just how she is feeling and what she would decide on for care or other.

Thank you for sharing! It means a lot to be able to read about your experience and I'm so sorry for your pain. I KNOW how you feel. Not sure what I will do without our girl by my side.

Thank you again.
Nancy

Jun 22, 2016
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Andrea
by: Anonymous

Oh, Andrea. I know what it's like living with a dog with cancer. When it was time to let them go, neither could stand. This happened suddenly, so I knew it was time.

From what you say, it sounds like it's time. I know how difficult this is. It really stinks. Prayers for you and your sweet pup.

Jun 22, 2016
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Liver Cancer
by: Andrea

Hi Everyone,
Thank you so Much Brody's Mum (I'm in the Uk) for this post. I have read it many times since my beautiful dog Fudge was diagnosed with Liver Cancer.

Last October he was diagnosed with Liver Cancer after blood tests and a scan of his Liver. I've had dogs in the past who have died of this terrible disease, but as many of you have said its been quite sudden. I'm not sure which is worse, 7 months of ups and downs or just suddenly being ill with it and then your pet is gone. Either way its always traumatic. My dog is now very poorly, he has stopped eating completely - although the eating thing has been a struggle since about Christmas, with his likes and dislikes of certain foods - he is very thin and all he wants is milk to drink.

He looks very sad and his back legs collapse on him when he tries to go out side for a wee. Last weekend he pooped without even realising it, but since has tried to get himself outside. Why do their back legs go? Does anyone know?

With long discussion with the Family, we now think its kinder to have Fudge put to sleep as he has no quality of life. I sound brave but I can assure you I am going to be in bits, I love him so much. I just need to know im doing the right thing although I know this deep down. I keep thinking, is there something I have missed that would prolong his life? Of course there isn't it's been a roller coaster of months anyway, I just want to make sure it's the right thing to do.

Sorry I sound ridiculous but all this is running through my head at the moment . Thank goodness for these blogs they have really helped reading them over the last 7 months.

Andrea

May 07, 2016
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Lilly
by: Anonymous

Nick,

Thank you for your kind words about Lucy. Even though it's been nearly three and a half years, I still miss her.

Hoping each day gets a little easier for you.

May 07, 2016
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Lucy
by: Nick

I am so sorry about your loss of Lucy. Yes the situation is similar. Lilly did not show any signs of distress, just did not seem herself for a couple of days.

Sorry.

Nick

May 07, 2016
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Lilly
by: Anonymous

Nick,

I'm sorry for your loss. It's heartbreaking when they seem to be fine, then they're gone. Your description of Lilly's condition is very similar to my Lucy's. I lost her on December 2, 2012. She seemed down for a few days, then she couldn't stand. We took her to the emergency vet and found she was bleeding internally and her liver was eaten up with cancer.

I'm truly sorry for your loss.

May 06, 2016
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My dog Lilly just died this past Tuesday
by: Nick Sileno

To Brody's mom,

I feel your pain & Lilly my Bicheon passed right after an ultrasound this past Tuesday. Test revealed multi liver masses and pancreatic mass. I was waiting for her in the office and the vet called me in.

While she was on the table getting fluids and oxygen, she was bleeding internally. I stayed comforting her, kissing her until she passed. My heart broke. I cried like a baby.

The vet said she did not have any pain and had she lived it would have been much worse. She can't be creameted until next Tuesday and I visit her every day. I have no words but I know how you feel. Do not have any guilt. I know it's easy to
say but Lilly seemed ok prior. Only for 2 days she just wasn't herself. I really did not know. Lilly would have been 12 , 8/30/2016. She gave me so much love and I feel empty.

May 03, 2016
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Guilt
by: madamezahn

Sweetie, please stop punishing yourself. You did everything you could for Brody. It was up to the vet, not you, to examine him for cancer.

We are going through this now with our beautiful Mishka. We rescued her in September from a wonderful group, she had seen a vet and came with a clean bill of health. Very long story short - she ended up with heart worm and mammary cancer, the kind that would likely recur even if we spent thousands on surgeries, chemo and radiation. The surgery alone could have killed her due to the high possibility of blood loss. So we opted to manage her pain for the last two months.

I can tell she is failing now with the same symptoms your Brody had. Even if you found out sooner about Brody's cancer, chances are good that your options would have been as awful as ours. So, you have nothing to feel guilty about. Brody certainly didn't feel this way. Brody loved you for staying with him as he drew his last breath. And wherever he is, he still loves you.

Please be gentle with yourself. I am so sorry for your loss.

Mar 29, 2016
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Maggie - Budesonide
by: Anonymous

Your theory about the bristle may be correct. Sounds plausible.

The Budesonide costs about $55.00 for a month for my cat. But of course, Maggie would require a larger dose. But this last refill, they gave me a ninety-day supply for $95.00, which is a substantial savings. The $55.00 per month was a little steep for us, but the $95.00 for three months is more doable.

Hope the prednisone does the trick!

Mar 29, 2016
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Maggie
by: Anonymous

No, she doesn't chew anything at all so that's what's weird. The only thing I could think that it MIGHT be is a wire bristle from a grill brush. My husband grilled burgers over the weekend and cleaned the grill with the brush. That would smell like food and that would be the only time she might be curious enough to lick/eat something.

I'm afraid of the cost of the Budesonide. From what I can tell it's crazy expensive?

Mar 29, 2016
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Maggie
by: Anonymous

Great news on Maggie. :-) I have a cat with IBD. If the prednisone doesn't work, ask your vet about budesonide. This fixed my cat. I buy it at the pharmacy because it has to be compounded. I suppose dogs can use this drug too? It's also a steroid, but it's not like a typical steroid where the animal has to be weaned off of it. My cat has been on it for six months or so and has gained weight and feels great. It's been a miracle drug for her.

Does Maggie eat objects? Is that what the vet thinks?

Mar 28, 2016
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Maggie
by: Anonymous

Well I went and got the X-rays done this morning and got the results back this afternoon. They didn't find any masses or any indication of liver problems so that's good news! They did say that there is some thickening of the bowel which indicated IBD. They also saw a small maybe 1 inch very thin metallic object and they have no idea what that is. Hopefully it will pass and not be an issue. She will be starting on Prednisone to get the IBD under control. Will recheck labwork in a couple of weeks and hopefully that will show improvement.

Mar 25, 2016
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Maxie
by: Anonymous

Barb, so sorry for your loss of Maxie. I know it's hard. They are family. May you find comfort in your memories with Maxie and the joy he gave you.

Mar 25, 2016
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Maggie
by: Anonymous

The x-rays sound like a good plan. Perhaps after getting the results, you'll have a better sense of how to handle her care. Please keep us updated.

Mar 25, 2016
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Liver cancer meds
by: Becky

My Sammy passed in January to liver cancer that spread. When she showed elevated liver enzymes they put her on Denosyl. Unfortunately her levels kept increasing and x-rays found the cancer on her spleen. They did a splenectomy and put her on Prednisone which made her seem like new - for a while. They had only given her a few months and gave us Tramadol and one other pain med to manage her pain.

I miss her terribly but like one of the other visitors here, I adopted a new dog recently to manage my own pain.

Mar 25, 2016
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Maggie
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of all the furbabies. It's so hard when they are sick and can't actually tell you what's going on.

I spoke with the vet today and I have decided to go ahead and do the digital x-rays on Monday morning. They are sent off to Seattle but if I can get them done Monday morning, they should have the results back that afternoon, Tuesday at the latest. I'm hoping to have a better idea of what is going on and hoping that everything looks great and maybe it's just PLE associated with Inflammatory Bowel Disease (which we could actually do something about). We shall see. I feel like I need to do SOMETHING so this will be our next step. Thanks everyone!

Mar 25, 2016
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Maggie
by: Anonymous

Ricky died of bone cancer, so his situation was different from Maggie's. But we waited to see how his condition would play out.

His sister, Lucy, had liver cancer. After her death, I found this website. We didn't know anything was wrong until about eight to ten hours before we put her down. But the vet did a blood test and found her platelets were low. Then they did an x-ray and saw she had fluid in her stomach. They may have aspirated the fluid, but I can't remember. Then they did an ultrasound and saw her liver was eaten up with cancer. Lucy's situation was very fast and left us in shock.

As for continuing the tests, that's up to you. Sometimes it helps to know exactly what's wrong so perhaps she can be treated. You might ask the vet what his or her opionion is about continuing the tests or not. Wish I could be more helpful.

Mar 25, 2016
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Maggie
by: Anonymous

Thank you so much for responding. What testing did your dog have done? I'm wondering if the vet could even give us an estimate of how long she has left without an X-ray or liver testing.

Mar 25, 2016
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Maggie
by: Anonymous

I am the one who responded last night. If Maggie is still doing okay, I'd wait. We were told in September 2013 that my Ricky had three to five months. He was thirteen, so we didn't treat him. He lived until December 2014. He told us when it was time to let him go.

Prayers continue.

Mar 25, 2016
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Maggie
by: Anonymous

Thanks. I will take all the prayers I can get. It's so hard to know what to do. I don't want her suffering but right now she's her same old self. She'll be 14 in June and she sleeps a lot but still will try to jump in if the kids are playing catch and loves to drag her "sharkie" toy around. 😔

Mar 24, 2016
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Maggie
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry you're going through this. Each time one of my pets is ill, I struggle with what to do. Honestly, I don't know what to tell you, but I will pray for wisdom for you. I wish you and Maggie the best. Please keep us updated.

Mar 24, 2016
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Dealing with this now
by: Anonymous

We just found out yesterday that our schnoodle, Maggie, is not doing well. After having what seemed like IBS for a long time (the last few years), we took her to the vet on Monday because I found a spot on the floor with blood in it. Wasn't sure what end it came from. Urinalysis came back clear and albumin levels were really low at 1.3 and cholesterol was low.

Vet said it could be liver failure or maybe even lymphoma. Said she was basically "walking on the edge of a cliff" and if she took a step to the left we could see drastic decline - seizures, fluid build up, etc. They didn't do liver function test with the routine blood work and no X-rays so they are not 100% sure what is actually going on but the vet is pretty concerned it's not good. I'm questioning what to do. She's a pretty anxious dog and I hate to put her through all the stress of the tests if the outcome is not going to be something we can do anything about anyway. He said that the chances of it being something potentially very serious outweighed the chances of it not. Any thoughts?

Feb 12, 2016
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To Ben fron Brady
by: Anonymous

So so sorry to hear about Ben. Thank you so much for your note on Brady.

Last week, I got a maltipoo puppy named Milo. I wasn't planning on getting another dog, and I was steering clear of anything dog-related, and one day two weeks go, I called a friend of a friend who has a maltipoo and asked her for the breeders info. Fast forward 10 days and I am picking Milo up at the airport.

No pet can ever take the place of Brady, but I am so in love with this puppy! It's so nice to be able to give your love to a new dog.

Thanks again for your note. I really appreciate you taking the time to respond, and hope you can focus on the greatness that was Ben.

Feb 12, 2016
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Ben
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry to hear about Ben. May you find comfort in the good memories you had with him. It's hard no matter how you lose a pet. May you remember the good times. He lives forever in your heart.

Feb 12, 2016
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Brady
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry for your loss of Brody. I understand your guilt that you have but please don't feel you need to defend yourself regarding bringing him to the emergency vet.

We too just lost our Dog, BEN. I am trying not to cry as I write this. it has not even been a week.

Your story sounds exactly like ours - even down to the selective eating. Ben always wanted his treats! Makes me smile a little...

We found out Friday he had liver cancer and told he wouldn't make it a week. He ended up passing at home early Monday morning at 2 a.m. We were with him. Those last few hrs were HORRIBLE! I understand your pain. We too kept him home....he wouldn't have made the car ride to the emergency vet. He passed on his bed. I felt really guilty having to see him like that.

He was a shy dog and loved his family so having him home was the right decision plus our other dogs could say goodbye.

Just know you are not alone... Others share your pain - and hope. You have given me comfort in knowing I am not alone or crazy for feeling so upset. I hope I could do the same for you.

Take care of yourself and your other furbabies.

Jan 10, 2016
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Lady Bug
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry to hear about Lady Bug. And she was so young. Thank you for rescuing her and giving her a good life. May you remember the good times with her and find comfort in the memories.

Jan 10, 2016
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Brady
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry to hear about Brady. May the good memories help you to move forward without him.

I found there is always guilt when an animal dies, whether by euthanasia or if they die on their own. I always wonder if I should have waited or should have put them down earlier. In Brady's case, the timing sounds perfect. But I know it's hard. May you remember how much you love him and what joy he brought your family.

Jan 10, 2016
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Brady....1/8/16
by: Anonymous

Thanks to everyone for sharing these stories.

Brady was 12 and 1/2 years old and the most wonderfully devoted family dog. Over the past 18 months, his health had deteriorated, but there was never anything super specific. Like many of the other stories I have read here, he had been to the vet about 5 times in the past 2 months for various ailments that seemed to resolve themselves with medication.

Last Monday, he woke up limping and seemed to be holding his head at a very slight angle. I decided not to bring him to the vet, because by Tuesday morning, the limp disappeared. On Tuesday, he went for his afternoon walk and seemed fine. But when he came home, he lay down and went into a deep sleep. He was not interested in eating and would not get up to go for a walk. Wednesday morning, we had to literally pick him up and carry him to the car to take him to the vet. The vet examined him, and then said she wanted to do an x-ray. 15 minutes later, she showed us his x-ray and told us he had several very large tumors on his spleen, abdomen, and lung. She sent us home with prednisone and told us he was critically ill.

Very early Thursday morning, he got up and I took him for a short walk. He came back home, slept a few hours, and then wanted to walk again. Although the medication seemed to help him, I was terrified that he was going to suddenly collapse and be in severe pain. The vet told me that we should prepare for the worst, and so, I decided the most humane thing we could do was put him to sleep.

On Thursday, I made the appointment for Friday at 5 in the afternoon. I slept on the floor with him, gave him cheese sticks and vanilla ice cream, and told him how grateful we were for all of the joy he had given us over the past 12 years. We went for a walk at 4 and after another quick nap, we helped him get up and into my car. At around 5, we were at the vet and Brady was standing on his Patriots blanket. The vet gave him one shot, and within 90 seconds, he lay down. I lay down beside him and we looked into each other's eyes. The vet left us with him for 5-8 minutes and then came back in to administer the final shot. Again I held on to him, looking directly into his eyes. A minute after the shot, the vet confirmed his heart had stopped and it was over.

We are having him cremated and are going to spread his ashes over a few of his favorite hang outs. I am devastated and feeling guilty that I did not wait a few more days. I just try to remind myself that had I waited, his death would have been very traumatic for both of us.

Brady was an amazingly wonderful family dog, and from my perspective, we released him from that job. His work here was done, and I comfort myself by reminding myself how peaceful his last day was.

Thanks for letting me share. I've found that reading other people's stories is comforting and hope this helps someone else who is grieving.

Jan 09, 2016
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Sammy
by: Becky

Thank you for your comments. Sammy passed away as I emailed work from another room to tell them I wouldn't be in because I needed to rush Sammy to the vet. I think she waited for me to see she was not well and for me and our other dog to show her one last time we cared, then slipped away when I was not in the room. Our other dog laid with her for a while both before and after.

I miss her so much I can't function. I am donating the leftover tramadol and prednisone back to the vet today. My biggest regret is not giving her a tramadol at 2 am when she still was seemingly ok.

Jan 08, 2016
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Sammy
by: Anonymous

Becky,

I'm so sorry to hear about Sammy. My heart goes out to you as you move forward without your baby.

Perhaps what I'm about to say will help you. I lost my two Aussies to cancer. Both were 14. Lucy didn't tell us anything was wrong until about ten hours before we put her down. She was fine, then she wasn't. Ricky was different. He had bone cancer, and we knew the day was coming. One evening, I bought him a box of new dog treats. He loved them and ate several. He probably would have eaten more had I let him. At seven o'clock I took him outside. At ten o'clock he could barely walk. The next morning, he couldn't stand so I knew it was time.

In our case, both dogs were fine then they weren't. So perhaps your Sammy was the same.

May the good memories outweigh the heaviness of your heart.

Jan 08, 2016
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My grief
by: Becky

I understand the guilt. I just lost my 14 yr old angel Sammy this morning and I am devastated.

She had had liver issues and was diagnosed with cancer when a mass was removed from her spleen and the spleen had to be removed. We were told she had a couple of months. That was October. She improved greatly post surgery, ate well, loved her veggie treats right up until this morning!

Then it was awful. I found her outside my bedroom and she couldn't get up, refused food, lethargic. I thought maybe she had a tummy upset but when her belly started pulsing and seizures took her as I frantically tried to reach the vet. When I took her for a routine shot 2 weeks ago they remarked how great she did. Vet told me NOT to give her the pain meds except on bad days. So I only gave her trampoline every few days. I am now wrecked with guilt that she died with no pain meds in her system!

I am now back from the vet...my sweetie will be cremated. I love her for always.

Dec 26, 2015
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My sweet Lady Bug
by: Anonymous

Lady bug was a stray that my mother had brought me in the dead of the night. She could not have been more than 2 months old. The night she came to be it was in the single digits and sleeting. My relationship from that moment on was something special. She was my cuddle buddy, and my therapist at times.

At the age of 2 and a half. something started to happen. She began to refuse to eat which for her was extremely weird. A nibble here or there but not meals. She began to drop weight fast. One night, she couldn't walk in a straight line and we took her to the vet. The vet ran blood work and an x-ray was done. Everything came back fine, except her liver. Her levels were high but not alarming and she was acting herself again, so she was sent home with liver medication and a steroid to get back her strength.

Fast forward a month and we were back where we started. She was worse this time. She would walk around the house like she has never seen it before as well as bump into everything. She didn't respond to her name half the time. No eating. No drinking. She was a shell.

The last moment I have with her is laying in my bed and holding her. I was waiting for my mother to come home to take her to the vet's office. Once there they put her on fluids, did a blood workup and told us to come in the morning and we would go from there.

That morning while in the waiting room, my Lady Bug passed away. The doctor called us in and told us what we feared the most. She, at 2 and a half, had liver and gallbladder failure. For the past 3 months, unknown to us and the vet she had started to fight a losing battle. Her organs just gave up. In her last moments she had lost all control of her nerves, and she was brain dead. Her body had gave all it had. I miss her incredibly.

Oct 06, 2015
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Holly
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry to hear about Holly. I know what you're going through. I lost my Lucy in a similar way on December 2, 2012. It's so heartbreaking, but you'll get through it. Time will heal the ache even though you'll never forget her.

Prayers for comfort.

Oct 06, 2015
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No pain like it
by: Holly's mum

I am sending out all my love to you wonderful people. Last night I lost my soul mate Holly. It's all a blur and I just can't believe I will never see her again God it hurts so so much.

Last week she was vomiting, her stomach was swollen and she was panting. We took her to the vets who said she has multiple liver tumours which have also spread to the pancreas. We were advised to let her go then but I couldn't, I had to give my baby a chance because the thought of existing without her was unbearable.

Over the last week she was amazing, going for walks every day, eating the special diet we made for her and giving me unlimited kisses, I was so blessed. Then last night my worst nightmare came true. She was struggling to breathe, her stomach was so swollen and she was panting. She didn't have strength to even look at me or wag her tail at all. I knew this was it and honestly it's the worst feeling you can ever imagine.

A bit of hope lived in my heart and we took her to the emergency vet. She told me Holly was dying and would be dead in the next few hours. She said if I chose to take her home she might be in unbearable pain and have a awful death. I couldn't risk my best friend leaving the world like that, so I made the hardest decision of my life. She died in my arms but those longing eyes will stay with me forever.

I love you Holly and if my love could have saved you, you would live forever. I don't imagine this heartbreak will ever heal, you were a part of me and I can't thank you enough. I'm scared of the world without you - I just want one last kiss...

Oct 06, 2015
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Liver Cancer in dogs
by: Sue

Oh dear, you are describing my dog Saffy - we've had her since she was 5 weeks old and she is now 16. She has liver cancer - everything you described is now happening to her. I know how you feel.

Sep 18, 2015
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condolences
by: Elizabeth

So sorry to hear of the loss of your precious pet. It is so difficult, but know you did everything you could and remember the good times. It will get easier with time, but you will never forget the joy he brought to you.

Mar 09, 2015
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Losing a loved pet
by: Anonymous

We have been going thru similar situation with the loss of our 7 yr old male Yorkie "Snickers" on Feb.27 2015.

We started to notice something was wrong about a yr ago when his belly became bloated but the vet couldn't find anything wrong. In December he started getting diarrhea with some blood. Took him to ER as it was the weekend. They gave him antibiotics and sent him home. Took him to vet the next day had x-rays, blood work done but nothing was showing except for an enlargement of the liver and spleen. Had biopsy done which didn't show any cancer cells but my poor baby was declining slowly. They thought it might be Giardisis, gave him meds.

After that he became listless and stopped eating but drank lots of water. Finally after ultrasound and blood work they said he was anemic from all the blood loss of past 2 mos and asked to do exploratory surgery. They gave him blood transfusion and did surgery to find he had lymphoma in his liver and spleen and intestine.

I had to decide right there to put him to sleep.

We have been suffering ever since. Not knowing how much he suffered in silence trying to be himself and we not picking up that he was in trouble. We just said goodbye to him when he went in for surgery. I would have preferred that he would have been at home with us when he passed and not at the vet's operating table. My daughter is inconsolable as she bonded with him since a puppy and considered him her baby. I keep going over everything we did to try and save him to no avail.

I know how you all must feel with your losses and only hope and pray that the little darlings will be waiting for us when it's our term to leave this earth. God Bless you all.

Mar 04, 2015
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My Precious JASMINE is gone 03-02-15
by: Donna, Germantown, Md

Our 13 year old pit bull-boxer mix JASMINE didn't even know she was a dog. She never had a mean bone in her body. Always kind and loving towards everyone.

Over the last two weeks she started to vomit and refused to eat. Because of her medical history an exploratory surgery was planned. Before the surgery, x-rays and an ultrasound were done. The ultrasound showed a shadow and it was decided to do a liver biopsy and wait for the results before JASMINE undergoing painful surgery.

For three days we returned to the vet for IV fluids and medication. At home, I could see my girl JASMINE slowing down but still trying to be herself. Still not eating but continuing to drink her water and laying on the sofa with her pillow and blanket. Her breathing changed. It seemed to become labored. Her neck extended at times with her cheeks puffing.

Sunday night she climbed the stairs up to the bedroom and hopped up on the bed what would be for the last time. She was a bed hopper; sleeping everywhere she wanted to. Always on a pillow and with a blanket covering her. I went to bed early that night to lay down with her. I woke up at 2 am, laying face to face with her, to find she died. She was scheduled to return to the vet in the morning for more fluids, while still waiting on the pathology report for the biopsy. Instead, she died on her terms in her loving home.

Twenty-four hours after her death the pathology report was back. She had liver cancer.

JASMINE is so missed. She's always been there for us and now she's gone. She left us with so many loving memories. The pain of her not being here rips our hearts out. I've never felt so alone as I do now.

Mar 01, 2015
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God bless him
by: Anonymous

Your post was so touching. My baby is in a state similar to yours before his passing and your story has helped me.

Feb 17, 2015
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So sorry
by: Anonymous

Just read your post about your sweet Cocker. My heart goes out to you. Allow yourself to grieve and remember the wonderful life you had together. So sorry for your loss.

Feb 16, 2015
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Lost my angel as well
by: TJ

I know your feeling of guilt all too well. My sweet Cocker Spaniel, my foot warmer, my ride along side kick, my protector died suddenly from liver disease last week. He was so happy and vital in the days before, with not a hint that his beautiful life was about to end.

He had been slowing down at ten years of age, didn't think much of it. In the week before his death, for a couple of days he got picky about what he would eat, but was still eating a little, just not his dog food. I then noticed he had a reddish orange tint in his urine. I made an appointment with the vet that Friday for their first available which was Monday morning. The clerk thought it was probably UTI.

Well Monday comes around and the doc notices the whites of his eyes were yellow, a sign of jaundice. He then runs an ultrasound and blood tests which turns out the tint in the urine was bilirubin. A sign of liver problems. I wasn't too concerned at this point because he had been tested a year before, cbc, urine tests and all was clean.

The doc then informs me he is in a critical stage and kept him for the next three days on i.v. fluids, antibiotics and pain meds. It didn't help. Then when he came home on Friday morning he wouldn't eat. Took him back to have fluid drained on Saturday afternoon with the understanding that he would probably be gone in a week. He walked out looking okay, with some meds.

I laid him next to me in bed that night. He lay quietly from around 9 p.m. until he became restless shortly before twelve. I got up to check on him, and within 20 minutes he was gone. He didn't pass peacefully. I had put him in the car to take him to an emergency clinic about ten minutes away, but he died in the car on the way.

I am devastated at how quickly a dog can succumb to liver disease with no obvious warning signs. My heart is truly broken at the loss of my best friend and I feel I somehow let him down. Though the vet tells me this is a common occurrence because by the time they start to show any symptoms, it is too late.

Dec 24, 2014
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December 4 Liver Tumor
by: Anonymous

I saw your post a few weeks ago and had planned to respond before now. I lost my Ricky on the same day to bone cancer. I've been grieving ever since.

I know we blame ourselves when we don't know they're sick. This happened with my Lucy on December 2, 2012 (see prior post). It's shocking and devastating. As hard as it is, do your best to not blame yourself. Dogs often don't show signs until they are very sick. That's my experience anyway.

Time heals sorrow. I'm on the same timeline as you. It's only been three weeks, and it's still fresh and painful.

Dec 24, 2014
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Liver Tumor - Christmas Eve
by: Anonymous

So sorry to hear about your thirteen-year-old dog. I pray the vomiting is a temporary bump in the road. Do keep us posted. Hopefully you'll have good news to share. Dogs can be amazingly resilient. My Ricky lasted fourteen months after his original diagnosis of bone cancer.

Take care, and keep us posted.

Dec 24, 2014
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liver tumor
by: Anonymous

Currently going through this with my precious 13 year old pup tumor was discovered last year and not possible to do anything with it because of its placement. We had a fantastic year of great health and long walks but when she got bad diarrhea in November, and her abdomen was distended the vet suggested we should get another scan. That was last Thursday.

Her tumor is now massive, encompassing most of the liver. The vet said she should be dead and can't understand how she is so well and active. She has had another good week since her scan and still active and happy, doing all the doggy things. Took her for a walk this evening Christmas eve. She did her usual act of trying to kill any dog she meets. Peeing and smelling. But began vomiting this evening and drinking large amounts of water.

From reading below I fear the end is very near and it hurts so much. I have been with her from the very moment of her birth and plan to be with her at the moment of her passing. Her mother won't last too long after her. She is 15 and they are inseparable. I now hug her and love her this Christmas eve.

Dec 04, 2014
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So sorry for your loss
by: Anonymous

I lost my dear dog to liver cancer today. I just can't believe she is gone. We missed all the signs too, loss of appetite, weight loss. She had surgery for bladder stones. Next, I had her teeth cleaned and the vet discovered a broken molar. She still was acting differently, I just thought she had not bounced back from surgery. Yesterday she has trouble standing, would not eat, play.

I took her to the vet, did blood work, x-ray said she had a liver mass? Ask the vet to treat the fever, took her home. Had to carry her in the house. She died in her own bed 3 hours later. I am still in dumb, how did I miss all this?

Aug 07, 2014
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So sorry...
by: Anonymous

Yes, you are making the right decision. It is the hardest decision of pet ownership. I faced it with Lucy in 2012 and will face it again soon. My other dog, Ricky, was diagnosed with bone cancer last week. We are taking it one day at a time and will know the day we have to make that decision.

Praying for your comfort.

Aug 07, 2014
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Today
by: Anonymous

My dog will be put down today. He went from fine to not able to walk overnight. They found cancer yesterday. He won't eat either. 24 hours and my world is upside down. He was an active dog - always barking and running around... This is not him and it kills me to see him try to stand or look at me to fix it. He doesn't understand...

I can't watch the suffering you described. I'm making the right decision. I already miss him.

Jul 16, 2014
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Brittany Boy
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's so difficult when they die young, and you know they have years left if it weren't for cancer.

I pray your pain lessens with each day.

Jul 15, 2014
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Not just older dogs
by: Anonymous

Lost my 5 year old Brittany boy two weeks ago to secondary liver cancer having already survived a successful surgery for malignant intestinal tumor.

When he began drinking copious amounts of water, and vomiting several times a day I knew it was not good. An ultrasound revealed multiple liver tumors and he was gone five weeks later. He did not seem to be in pain, just rapidly declined - losing more weight and strength and energy each day. We had a few very bad days with minor seizures or not being able to stand up when he woke up in the morning that last week.

Had he not been so healthy otherwise it might have been worse. Doc was an athlete - biked 5 - 6 miles a day with me, kayaked, canoed, went EVERYWHERE with us in his too short life. He tried SO hard to hang on, but by the day we had the vet come out, he was quietly ready and accepting. Literally seconds after the drip began he was gone. I miss him so much.

Jul 13, 2014
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Toby
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry about Toby. Guilt is normal. I've chosen to let pets die on their own, and I've also put them down. I've felt guilty either way.

May God comfort you in your loss. I'm really sorry.

Jul 13, 2014
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Eclair
by: Anonymous

I just read your post about Eclair, and I'm so sorry. I think the the older they are, the harder it is, especially if you've had them since they were a puppy.

Grief is different for everyone. I'm glad you are seeking counseling. I hope you are doing better now.

May God comfort you.

Jul 13, 2014
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my baby girl Toby :(
by: Anonymous

I too am devastated by the loss of our 12 y/o beagle mix. She became so ill so quick!

Last week I noticed she was eating much and was losing some weight, & I figured it could have been because she had a few bad teeth and maybe the dry food bothered her, so I started mixing dry/wet food and she ate it all up.

A few days later we went on a road trip to another state, & brought her with us rather than put her in the kennel with her brother. On vacation, she was eating and doing fine, but the day before we left for home, she stopped eating again, but still drank water and milk. On the last day of vacation (Sunday) she seemed tired but she did have those days with her age. We came home on Monday and she was fine and eating again. Tuesday morning was a good day for her, but by Wednesday evening I could only get her to eat small amount, but at this point she was still mobile and otherwise OK. Thursday morning I could not find her anywhere! She liked to hide, & at times she didn't listen when we called her. Often, she'd be in a closet, or under a bed! By the time I found her, she was in the upstairs guest bathroom whimpering and in diarrhea, unable to move. She was also breathing heavily. Gasping.

I immediately put her in the bath to wash her off all feces, dried her well, & put a call into the vet but the office was closed. I took her outside, & had to hold her up so she could try to urinate of which she never did. I kept her hydrated through the night by spooning chicken broth into her mouth (she refused to open her mouth to eat).

By this point, she would gasp for air and then when I held her and loved on her, she'd calm down a little bit... I knew at this point that if I brought her to an ER Animal Hospital, it wouldn't do any good, it was too late. I took her upstairs to my bedroom & had her right next to my bed. I continued to pet her, & 2 tines she whimpered... I knew it wasn't long at this point.

My kids all came in and kissed her goodnight, & around 12:30 I accidentally dozed off. I woke up in a panic at 1:40 am, & she had passed.

My husband and I, and our children are devastated! She was our baby girl!! This happened Friday morning. It's been 48 hours since she's passed. I miss her terribly, & I feel so guilty that I failed her. There's a HUGE hole in my heart! :'-(

Jun 06, 2014
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When Does The Pain Stop
by: Anonymous

I lost my beloved little boy to primary liver cancer May 5, 2014.

It was found on a routine ultrasound for another illness he had.

It was on one lobe, so surgery was successful. BUT I was told that the cancer would come back as chemo and/or radiation does not work on liver cancer. When it came back it was encompassing the whole liver so surgery was not an option. He was 15 and his name is Eclair. They bought me three more years with him, which I will always be grateful for. That's the clinical part.

The emotional part is I am so much in grief and pain. He was my best friend, my little boy. We were joined at the hip. He followed me everywhere. When does it get any better? It has been a little over a month, and I feel like I am stuck. I just started going to a grief counselor for pet loss, hopefully that will help me. There is a big hole in my heart.

Apr 03, 2014
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Baby Emma
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry to hear about Emma. Cancer has taken four of my pets, so I understand your pain. When it comes suddenly, I think it's worse. You are shocked as well as heartbroken.

May God heal your broken heart.

Apr 02, 2014
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Baby Emma
by: Anonymous

I find this post comforting. I had to put my dog to sleep yesterday because she had developed cancer.
It came from nowhere and I had her at doctors and no one suspected it let alone the severity.

I am devastated too. I keep thinking in the back
of my mind she wound have survived.

Thank you for sharing your stories.

Jan 04, 2014
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Roxie
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry to hear about your sweet Roxie. What you describe sounds a lot like what our Lucy experienced in December 2012. I know what you are going through and it's heartbreaking. May God comfort you in your time of grief.

Dec 26, 2013
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My heart is with you
by: Anonymous

My heart is breaking as I read your story. I lost my precious Nigel in April. May God grant you healing. Just know that there are those of us who understand your pain and feel good that you gave this fortunate soul a wonderful home that would not have been possible without you.

Dec 26, 2013
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Sweet Roxie
by: Anonymous

Our family just had to put our 13 yr old English Pointer Roxie to sleep on Christmas Day because of what we were told by the emergency vet was most likely liver cancer.

She had been showing signs since a few days before Thanksgiving and our regular vet took x-rays and did blood work on 11/26 and told us her blood work was better than he expected for an older dog and that the x-rays showed some bridges in her vertebra and told us she had a bad back....they put her on predizone and a muscle relaxer which I believe did more harm than good because she had an allergic reaction to the steroid and I'm sure being on the meds did more damage to her liver.

Since Thanksgiving she would have good days and bad and then on Christmas Eve we noticed she had some labored breathing from just going outside to the bathroom and later just moving positions in the bed. When we got up Christmas morning she could not move on her own we had to carry her outside to use the bathroom which she never did. She went from 11pm the night before until she was put down at 3pm Christmas Day without going to the bathroom. I noticed that her eyes were twitching and along with her other signs we rushed her to the emergency vet where they told us she was in critical condition.

We rescued Roxie when she was 2 and she had been abused and she had a very special place in our hearts. She was so tough from what she went through as a puppy and she never once whimpered while she was dying and in pain from the cancer. I know we did the right thing and that she is in a better place with her older brother Cherokee waiting for us and not suffering anymore. God took her on his birthday so it proved what we already knew, that Roxie was a very special dog.

Oct 01, 2013
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So Sorry, Joe
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry to hear about your dog. I know what you are feeling, having lost our Lucy in December. It's a sad time and there is a big hole to fill. Time will make the hole smaller, but it's always there, I think. Praying for your family in this time of loss.

Oct 01, 2013
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Reese's Pieces
by: Joe

Nicknamed "Brown dog", by my son, our 7-1/2 year old chocolate lab/doberman "Reese" was put down today at 5:45 PM today. She only lived 8 weeks after being rushed to the animal E.R. with a horribly bloated belly. Although the surgeon's prognosis for Reese's life expectancy of 8 weeks after emergency surgery was exactly correct - I'm glad to have paid for that additional time. I've lost a very dear Friend. No doubt at the Pet Rainbow Reese will be waiting for us, wagging her tail & whining!

Mar 24, 2013
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Your Cocker Spaniel
by: Anonymous

I know how difficult it is to make this decision. Over the years I have put pets down and I have let others pass on their own. I struggle with what is right each time.

I am the "mom" of Lucy, the Australian Shepherd that we put down on December 2. Something I read before her death helped me and I hope it helps you. I read on the web that an owner will know when it's time and will know what is the right thing to do. So, I think that you know what is best for your dog and that you are making the right decision. Just know that it is normal to question decisions like this. It is such a hard decision and we love our pets so much that we want to do what is right.

I am praying for you!

Mar 24, 2013
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So hard
by: Anonymous

I am so very sorry. It's such a hard thing to do and deep down we know it's the right thing to do, but we don't want to let go. It's been almost 3 weeks since we had our Silly put to sleep and I miss him every day. I too brought him home for one last night to sleep in his bed and I was up most of the night talking to him.

You are doing the best thing for your buddy, but it's still so hard. My thoughts are with you.

Mar 24, 2013
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15 yr old cocker spaniel
by: Anonymous

Our cocker spaniel has had elevated liver parameters on his blood tests for quite a while but has never really been poorly with it. He has so much to deal with as he had a slipped disc and spinal surgery and has been incontinent ever since and at the time was paralyzed from the waist down. He regained most of his feeling back but never his continence and over the years we have seen a gradual deterioration in his back legs with the muscles wasting. We had noticed some weight loss too and in recent months he seemed so tired all the time especially as he finds it really hard now to walk.

We got the vets (where I work) to scan his liver and they found that he has a tumour in his liver but also in his gall bladder and pancreas too. We decided to bring him home for a last weekend with us and have arranged for the vet to come out on Monday to put him to sleep before his symptoms get any worse.

This is the worst decision we have ever had to make and we have been beating ourselves up all weekend about whether we are doing the right thing by our baby boy but deep down we know we are, we don't want him to suffer and we are only being selfish by wanting to just hold onto him. So tomorrow we will do the right thing and say goodbye to him and grieve for him just as others have grieved for their babies too.

Mar 07, 2013
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Silly
by: Anonymous

Yes, we lose a piece of our heart and there is a huge hole in the pit of our stomach. I know you will miss Silly a lot since he slept with you and was a huge part of your life. It will get easier! I am slowly healing after losing Lucy. Take care and know that there are many who completely understand the pain you are experiencing.

Mar 07, 2013
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Thank you so much
by: Anonymous

I too will keep his ashes in my bedroom on my nightstand. My husband works midnights and Silly always slept on the side of the bed nearest the door. I'm sure it was his way of being protective. People who don't have pets just don't understand how hard this is, but when we lose a pet, we lose a piece of our heart.

Mar 07, 2013
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Dear My Silly Boy
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry to hear about your precious boy. It's been nearly 14 weeks since we put our Lucy down with hemangiosarcoma. Cancer really stinks! I am thankful that you had one more night with your boy, but just knowing what needed to be done is extremely difficult. May you have peace as you pick up your boy today.

Lucy was also cremated and I decided to keep her box of ashes in our bedroom where she liked to sleep. I had a memorial stone made for her and it is in our pet cemetery where other pets are buried. In another month or so, I will plant flowers to turn the pet cemetery into a garden. Perhaps think of something you can do in memory of your precious boy.

I'm sorry you are having to go through this. May God give you comfort and peace.

Mar 07, 2013
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My Silly boy
by: Anonymous

My 13 year old black lab went for his annual checkup a couple of weeks ago and that evening wasn't feeling well. He had an infected anal gland, so between the shots and the antibiotics they put him on, we thought he would feel better the next day. He vomited a couple of times and was drinking huge amounts of water.

I had him back to the vet a week later and they decided to do blood work to see if something else was going on. His liver enzymes were off the chart, so we decided to admit him and have them run IV's for a couple of days to clean the toxins from his system.

When I went to get him 2 days later, his eyes and the inside of his ears were already turning yellow and he wouldn't eat and just didn't feel good. The vet said he was sure he had liver cancer and could do exploratory surgery, but we didn't want to put our boy thru anything else. I decided to bring him home for the night so he could take a ride in the car and sleep on his chair one more night. He hadn't eaten anything he could keep down for about a week and half, but he sure tried!

The next morning I knew it was time to take him back and have him put to sleep. We have had to have dogs put to sleep before, but this is the hardest thing we've had to do. I did talk to the vet and she told me that the vaccines could have very well aggravated something he already had going on and I honestly think that's what happened, because he went downhill so fast.

We had him cremated and I will be picking him up again today from the vet, but this time I know he isn't suffering anymore and in time maybe I won't be either.

Jan 24, 2013
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To Anonymous and to Lisa
by: Anonymous

Dear Anonymous and Lisa,

I just read both of your posts about losing Rollie and Kendra. Please accept my deepest sympathy for your losses. The days after losing a pet are the darkest, but as time passes, the days become a little better.

My Lucy has been gone now for 7.5 weeks. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of her. I still mourn her loss, but the days are a tiny bit less painful. I think it helps to do something for them in their memory. I had a memorial stone made for Lucy. I purchased mine from a seller on eBay and it is beautiful. When spring comes, I will make a memorial garden in my backyard. I have other pets buried there, but plan to add Lucy's stone, some stepping stones, and flowers. She liked to walk in the pet cemetery and look around. I will make the area more beautiful in honor of her.

Canine cancer can take us by surprise like it did to our family. It can come on suddenly and turn our lives upside down. I pray for healing and comfort for both of your families.

Jan 24, 2013
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Our Rollie (Daushund)
by: Anonymous

Our Rollie died of liver cancer. He was such a loving dog. His decline was slow. He lost the use of his limbs and was incontinent. The Vet wanted to "put him to sleep". I believe death is part of the living experience so we made him comfortable under the kitchen table. He was aware of us and his surroundings even up to the time of his death. He managed to give me a kiss a few hours before he passed. He was a real Trouper and I miss him now.

Art Rofe

Jan 24, 2013
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Liver cancer
by: Lisa

I lost my precious Kendra yesterday at 13:40. She died of liver cancer and she was only five.

She was such a loving, gentle and beautiful dog who gave me so much joy and unconditional love, I will miss her so much. I'm in so much shock and pain at the moment and feel so guilty and robbed.

Kendra's condition deteriorated in only a couple of days. I took her to the vet on Monday, as she was not eating properly over the weekend and was vomiting on Sunday. Her stomach was bloated and I was afraid that she was suffering from 'Bloat'. The vet ruled this out, examined Kendra and said she has a soar throat. We thought, perhaps she has just gained weight. Kendra was given some antibiotics but she kept vomiting on the Tuesday and I was increasingly alarmed at the size of her stomach.

All the time, I was liaising with the vet about her stomach and sickness - I returned to the vet on Wednesday, she had some blood tests which confirmed that there was something wrong with her liver - I couldn't believe how quickly Kendra deteriorated. The vet undertook an exploratory operation and found multiple tumours in her liver.

Unfortunately, Kendra could not be saved and now my world has turned upside without her. I am so sad that this has happened and feel guilty that I didn't pick up her illness earlier.

My condolences to all that are going through this awful pain. Thanks for listening.

Dec 02, 2012
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Inoperable Liver Tumor
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry to hear about your precious Angel. I just went through a similar experience in the last 15 hours.

I said goodbye to my precious Lucy this morning at about 1:00 am. Yesterday she just wasn't feeling well. She drank a lot of water when she first got up, went outside, and then came back inside. She seemed a little "down," but some days were bad for this 14 year old girl with arthritis. She ate a little breakfast and then went outside again. When she came back in she drank a lot of water again. I watched her carefully, but when she refused to urinate and then later tried to urinate and couldn't, I know something was wrong. She did eat a bit more, but she suddenly became weak.

My husband and I put her in the car and headed to the ER. After blood tests, chest and abdominal x-rays, and an ultrasound we learned that Lucy was not going to make it. She had an inoperable tumor on her liver and her liver was like Swiss cheese. She was slowly bleeding to death. We drove back to the ER and held her in our arms as the vet put her down. I have the biggest hole inside of me and only slept one hour last night.

Lucy showed very few symptoms. Her appetite has not been very big for probably the last 3-4 years. However, she always ate some and had not lost more than 1.5 pounds in the last few years. No vomiting, no diarrhea. The only thing I can pinpoint looking back over the last few months is perhaps increased thirst and a couple of down days within the last 8 days.

I miss her terribly, but my temporary grief is worth the joy that she gave me over the last 14 years. I will never forget her and will ALWAYS love her.

Rest in peace, sweet Boo Boo.

Oct 06, 2012
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Our Sweet Porkchop
by: Anonymous

Our precious, almost 15 year old shih tzu, Porkchop was diagnosed with liver cancer. He had lost so much weight, slept so much and was weak. It was the hardest thing to say good-bye, but he did not need to suffer. Our hearts ache! We love him and will always miss him.

Jul 11, 2012
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Nigel
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry for your loss. My dog, Nigel, is in the hospital now. We are awaiting the results of a liver biopsy and he was also just diagnosed with diabetes. He will be 11 July 12. He has lost weight steadily over the past few months and we've had negative results for all blood work until now. I am devastated thinking about what tomorrow's news might bring, but I have found comfort in the comments posted here. Thank you.

Jun 17, 2012
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Goodbye Chloe
by: Anonymous

Our dog Chloe passed away last night from liver cancer. She was a kelpie/Keeshond cross and was 14 years old. She was very fit and active but had been losing weight over a few months. She loved her walks up to 3km at times. She was extremely well behaved and loving. She would come inside at night and lay in front of the heater and just look at us - her family.

Two days ago she would not eat and became very weak in the legs. We took her to the vet who diagnosed a bleed from a liver tumour. She refused all of her medications and food. We watched her suffer for two days and it was agonizing. We were going to have her put to rest today.

Last night her breathing was slow and laboured, she could not move. We lay her on a cushion and covered her with a blanket. Our neighbour came to say goodbye to her and we all cried. She passed away at 8.30pm.

We will miss her so much and we will never forget her. I will miss seeing her when I come home from work and her excited bark.

I hope you are at peace now Chloe. We love you. xx

Jun 06, 2012
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My beloved Baxter
by: Susan

Rest in peace, my dear Baxter. He was a 10 year old basset hound who had battled with Lymphoma for 20 months and, of all things, we lost him to liver cancer that was unrelated to the Lymphoma.

We put him down today after being diagnosed with liver cancer just yesterday. I am wandering around the house anticipating the sound of his footsteps, his sighing, and hearing his howls when we sang "I am so lonely". Now I'm the one that is so lonely.

Thank you, my dear puppy, for the 10 years that we had with you. I will always love you. See you at the Rainbow Bridge.

May 21, 2012
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Losing Kate
by: Elizabeth

I came across these lovely tributes to your dogs while trying to find out about liver cancer in dogs. I cried heaps.

We too have just lost a faithful, loyal and hard working farm dog to liver cancer. There was no prior warning - the symptoms to make me take Kate to the emergency vet only appeared the same day she passed away. She hadn't eaten her tea, I had trouble waking her from her kennel that morning and she was very slow and wobbly on her feet. Her eyes were vacant too. The vet first noticed her pale, whitish gums and once she was weighed I also realised there was weight loss. An X ray showed a liver tumour. She was given fluids and meds through an IV line and also pain relief was administered for the next 12 hours. It all happened so quickly and during that night she passed away in her sleep. I never thought she going to die in such a short space of time. She had kept going until she couldn't any longer. It's such a very sad time when you lose a loved pet.

May 21, 2012
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So very sad
by: Anonymous

I am having trouble sleeping tonight as I did last night, the night before and so on. My precious little Tiffany was very sick on a week end and I took her to the vet on Monday morning. I had given her a bit of people food Saturday night so we thought she was sick from that as my other dog had been. I took her home and she just seemed to get worse and hadn't eaten or drunk since Saturday so Tuesday I called the vet and told them she still wouldn't eat or drink. They told me to bring her in and they would give her an IV and do a blood test. The phone rang and it was my vet and he told me she was a very sick girl and told me her levels which were sky high. It was so sudden I couldn't believe it was even happening but I loved her so much and knew it was the humane thing to do for her.

Now she is free of pain and crossed over the Rainbow Bridge as the other dogs I read about have also. May they all rest in peace. And somehow I, as well as all of you, will get through grieving for our precious dears. I miss her so, she was such a sweet beautiful dog and I have had her since she was eight weeks old. I love and miss you Miss Tiffany Jewel.

Dec 12, 2011
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Our Loving Teddy
by: Anonymous

Teddy was the love of our lives. He was so much a part of the family. We adopted him at 5 months and he fell right into our hearts. He was sparky, playful and loving up until this Sat. night. He always joined the family in the family room to watch TV.

Around 10 pm, he left the room to be alone on the floor in the living room. He never did this his entire life. Sunday a.m. he did not want to wake up from his little bed. He got up around 10 a.m. Very unlike him. He drank a lot of water (unlike him) and immediately vomited it up. I brought him to the emergency vet by 3 o'clock, and we were at the Animal Hospital several towns away by 6 pm.

This morning, the doctor called to say he had a comfortable night; however, they found a mass on his liver. He was bleeding internally and his platelet count was extremely low as was his red blood count. They said he may not survive the surgery due to this and if he did, he would need chemo. This was liver cancer.

Teddy was only 7 years. My vet felt it in Teddy's best interest to put him to sleep before he got too uncomfortable. He also said Teddy would be so weak that he could just die at anytime while at home.

When I got to the hosptial today, I held him in my arms and cried into his fur. He knew he was so loved by all of us, and by everyone who met him. I promised him I would always love him and he would be happier with God and no pain. He closed his eyes with is head on my chest while they administered the drug.

I had to tell my grandkids... and we are all so devastated. We can't believe it happened overnight. Our house is so empty. our hearts broken. I loved this dog with all my heart and soul. I know he loved me and the kids as much. Teddy was my heart's companion. He gave more comfort to me than any human ever did.

I will always love you, and never forget you, Teddy.

Dec 08, 2011
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Very sad
by: Mark

I also have gone through this a few times and would like to add.

You do all you can to make them comfortable in the end, and there is only so much you can do for a loved pet when they get to the end. My vet said something to me that, at the time he said it, it was hard to swallow, but he advised me of putting my dog down after a long treatment and expensive ordeal. He also added that you are doing the right thing and you will see it that way in time.

I think you made the right decision not moving the dog and just holding him and making him comfortable through his jorney. You have to do what is best for everyone and you have to decide this sometimes at the last minute.

God bless people who do all they can for animals.

Sep 14, 2011
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I miss him so much
by: Shannys Mom

I'm so sorry for your loss. We lost our dear friend Shanny from a liver tumor in June. He was 13 1/2. I miss him so much. Our home just isn't the same without him. Its one of the hardest losses I have ever had in my life.

All the best to you and your family. I'm sure we will see our friends again.

Jul 15, 2011
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I feel your pain
by: Tracy

I am so sorry to hear about your dog.

We have just had to get our dog Rosie put to sleep last night with liver cancer. We hadn't realised how ill she was as she was still running around and seemed healthy apart from losing a little bit of weight.

We took her to the vet which advised us to take her for scans the following day. She had liver cancer which was going into her stomach, her kidneys were failing. The cancer had also gone into her lymph nodes and they said she was diabetic.

We were advised to get her put to sleep as they said it would have been awful for us and the children to see when she got worse. They said she would only live a few more days.

It was the hardest thing we have ever had to do - she was only 6.

The house will never be the same without her here, and I understand how you feel as we are all heartbroken.

My heart and thoughts are with you - at least they are both at peace now.

Jul 10, 2011
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Our Dukie
by: Shari and Frank

I am crying as I read your letter. We are going thru the same thing right now.

Our rot/lab/shep Duke is almost 12 and the vet found a mass on his liver. He lost his appetite, is losing weight and has bouts of vomiting.

My heart aches for you and Brody, just as it aches when I look at my loving Duke. You must have suffered just as much as he did as you helplessly watched in his final hours. I'm sure he knew that you guys loved him; remember that! It is just so hard that our dogs become like real family members. Just take care and remember him will great memories.

Jun 21, 2011
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your precious angel is an inspiration
by: Greg & Gloria

I was just reading your story and I can't help but cry right now - our beloved Fred, an 11 year old shihtzu, has been diagnosed with liver disease recently. We are devastated and we promised him that he will have the best life he can have with us and we will do our very best to alleviate his sufferings and we will be there with him to the end.

Thank you very much for your story - it is giving us so much comfort right now. I know how much you loved him and he is in dog heaven right now. We are very sorry for your loss.

Your story is an inspiration to us - thank you !

Jun 12, 2011
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Missing our Precious Belle
by: Kathy

Please accept my sincere sympathy in the loss.

My husband and I just had to say goodbye to our precious 13 year old beagle, Belle, on June 10, 2011, due to liver cancer. She was at the vet receiving IV fluids and was responding well. They took her out to do her business and she collapsed and they immediately put her on oxygen and called us. The vet indicated that she was in deep breathing distress so we elected right away to put her to sleep. She had been vomiting for two days prior and was so weak and sick.

Life without her will never be the same. We rescued her when she was 5 & she had been badly abused. It took her several months and she realized that her life had certainly taken a change for the better. Her next 8 years were great and so was ours! We miss and love her!!

Jun 12, 2011
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We're going through this right now
by: Carol

Our beautiful rottweiler began the first of May exhibiting some health issues & was diagnosed with liver cancer just before Memmorial Day. He is in the final stages and all I can do is cry.

I cannot agree to euthanasia, it is too hard a decision plus the fact that everyone I have talked to about that says they feel as if they committed murder as soon as they put their pet down.

We brought this gorgeous, gentle giant home in the palm of our hand when he was 4 weeks old as his mother had 15 pups in her litter and couldn't deliver the 15th, requiring immediate hysterectomy. With the mother dog being too sick to nurse, the puppies were all handfed until the owners began selling the babies at 4 weeks.

Having our beauty since he was only 4 weeks old, he is like one of our children and this is one of the hardest things we have ever faced. The vet said he has NEVER seen a dog this sick with a WBC of 57,000. Still our darling persists in hangiig on! Any comforting thoughts or help would be most appreciated. Thank you.

Jun 07, 2011
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Take comfort in being with him
by: Carol

Hi,

I lost my 11 year old boxer to cancer over two years ago and still cry often at the loss. We had been given a few extra precious months with her due to chemotherapy but knew time was running out. I had promised her all the way through that I would be there for her right till the end, but she had to be put to sleep before I could get to her as she went downhill very fast. I cannot forgive myself for not being there for her, holding her and talking to her. Please take comfort in being there for your loved one at the end....they will have felt your love when they needed it most.

Carol

May 25, 2011
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Princey is with the King of Kings
by: Princey's mom

Thank you so much for your posting. I just had to have my 8 yr old Pit Bull/Chow put down this evening due to what I believe was Liver Cancer.

I knew he had been suffering from a fever (104.6), and the other symptoms you spoke of. I thank God for your posting because I know without a single doubt I did the right thing by what you shared about your pets end.

The vet had told us that we either had to start a treatment for him or put him down, she could not in good conscience let us take him home because he would get very sick in the end.

I am soooo sorry for your loss as I am so sorry for mine. They are in God's hands now and they are not feeling any discomfort.

As your pet I know mine was loved more than words can say.

Thank you again for sharing..


Jan 18, 2011
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Sorry for your loss
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry for your loss. We just lost our 8 year old cocker spaniel suddenly and unexpectedly from cancer on January 6, 2011. We are devastated and so lost without him. Again, I'm very sorry for your loss. My sympathy goes out to you.

Sep 24, 2010
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Dear Buddy
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry for the loss of your Buddy - I believe he knew (knows) you loved him - you did so much to keep him healthy and tried your best to save him. It was his time.

S

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